Tuesday, December 31, 2002
so wongs has gone back to germany... *sniff, sniff* but it was great while he was here! and i talked to him today and made him play word racer at 7 am (his 7 am. :P)
the day went by really fast today. woke up bright and early (or should i say dark and early) to go to class for a few hours, came home and bummed around online, talked to wongs for a couple hours (i think i got jipped on my phonecard!!), napped, had dinner, set up my computer (and my beyootiful new monitor! :)... then spent several hours online catching up on blogs, playing word racer and talking to ppl... namely brian. :) nate's still up with me, playing sc and yahoo games. i swear he's hooked!
i really have no point to this blog... so i should end it here. :)
oh, one more thing... guess what... i got called for jury duty... O_o on my first day of work! >.< well, summoned. but i dunno how long it'll last. my dad had the same thing happen to him and he was dt for quite a few days. aieee....
Saturday, December 28, 2002
phew! it's been a great wk. :) i just got back from kitch not too long ago and now it's time for a breather and catching up on things around here. i moved out of my condo yesterday aft... it's the last time i'll be moving out of any sorta place cuz i'm living at home from now on. yuppers, that's right. with my parents forever and ever. haha. well, we'll see how long... til i leave the country or til i get married! :)
a lot has changed. and i'm starting to realize it now. sort of a relief... and i'm surprised at myself. hopefully this will continue.
this past wk has been about playing and pot-lucking and seeing old beloved friends and food and shopping and finally resting and doing nothing... and really savouring it. i've seen more movies in this wk alone than i have all yr! :) which isn't saying much if u know me. hahaha.
during the yr i don't have much time to chill and hang out with ppl. most of my time is spent in productivity and the time i spend with friends is mostly for catching up. i like talking about life and things that ppl have been going thru and thinking about, rather than things like new gadgets and movies and new styles and things like that. and sometimes i get really impatient when that happens cuz i feel like i'm wasting my time. i like to make a connection with ppl in conversations and i don't feel that those types of conversations take friendships to a deeper level in any way. but i do realize the benefit of those conversations and how sometimes u need a balance. anyhow, this wk has been about doing "nothing" and enjoying it. and not feeling guilty cuz i'm not being productive. things like counting piles of coins for the fun of it, watching endless movies, walking thru electronic stores and ooo-ing and aaahh-ing about how cheap stuff is ;), grocery shopping, long drives to unknown places, reading magazines and talking about celebrities, doing our nails, reading our horoscopes and speculating about the new yr to come, talking about pets, shoe shopping, baking cookies, taking silly pics and more. thanx to all my best buds who spent quality time with me this wk. :) it's not about what we're doing or talking about, but it's about spending time... together. i've missed that.
i'm ready for another great wk! :)
Wednesday, December 25, 2002
merry christmas, everyone!!!
it's a white christmas after all. :D
Tuesday, December 24, 2002
phew! what a busy last 3 days. i am looking foward to christmas cuz it WON'T be so busy! nice relaxing family time.
i'm too tired to update right now, so i'll do that l8r.
but b4 i go, i just wanted to clarify one thing: contrary to popular belief, i DO NOT have a boy. :) the reason i was so happy last wk was cuz i discovered that.... WONGS IS BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) :) :) :) what a goof, he surprised ALL OF US!! but i love surprises, so it made his trip home 10x more fun and exciting. :) for me at least. hahahaha.
ok, time to sleep cuz my sis needs to do some last minute christmas power shopping early tmr morn!
Saturday, December 21, 2002
Lord Of The Rings
Seeing The Two Towers on opening day wasn't such a good idea afterall. Just makes my wait for The Return of the King all the more longer. *sigh*
Friday, December 20, 2002
well, it's over.... sort of. how anti-climactic.
time to drown my sorrows and dance my heart out.
my strong type-b personality has kicked in....
i dunno if it's a good or bad thing.
Thursday, December 19, 2002
waaaaaahhhhh!!!!
[sigh] oh to be done. it just gets more depressing every day. i am now experiencing what angee calls the "i want to die" syndrome.
3 food service lessons tmr. and one big essay due fri.... that still needs a lot more work. like... the writing part. ahem. i'm prepping for the lessons right now and this stuff is fascinating!! tmr we're gonna do stocks, sauces and soups, meats, poultry, fish and shellfish. all the really important stuff!! by the time i'm done this course i'll be able to cook!!!! or at least know the theory behind it all. haha. i guess applying is another level.
i've managed to do it again. book myself completely full this wkd after i hand in my essay. (i can't say done cuz i'm really not.) 3 potlucks in 3 days.... except i forgot that potlucks require cooking. or at least the time to go out and buy something. which.... i don't even think i have time for. did i mention that i have done absolutely no christmas shopping yet or writing of christmas cards? plus i have 4 food service lessons on monday which will require some more prep, i.e. read 10 chapters. lovely! i have to read 8 chapters tonight. 4 down, 4 more to go. i'm skimming like crazy. maybe i'll skip all the parties and outings this wkd and stay home and learn about professional cooking instead. [sigh]
u know it's time to go grocery shopping when u eat ice cream not cuz u feel like ice cream, but cuz it's the only thing left in ur cupboards/fridge/freezer that doesn't require cooking (cuz it's 4 am in the morn and u don't wanna wake up ur roommates) and will fill u up. i've been cleaning out my food supply lately in anticipation of moving out. but uh.. i think i underestimated how much i eat. O_o
on a happier note, i love the new sheppard line!!!! not that i've actually used it yet, but i am very excited at the anticipation of using it in a few days to visit chuck and alan!! a couple times. haha. how convenient!! no more buses for me and no more needing to be picked up. yay!!
on an even happier note, hurray for "special someones" who just happen to call 5 min after u have been staring at ur phone, wondering why no one ever calls u anymore. is that gmta at its best or what? :)
ok, my whining ends here. back to poultry, fish and shellfish.
lord, help me to live out col 3:23.... only 2 more days!!! >.<
Wednesday, December 18, 2002
it's one big circle!
i started stalking gel one day while i was reading angee's friend trish's (who i've met twice) blog. and so began a lovely stalking relationship. i really liked gel's entries and told shannon about them, so she started stalking gel too.... until she realized that gel was angela, the girl that she sat beside in stats class every wk!! and a friend of shannon's friend stella from edmonton who's currently living in sweden.
when i'm extremely bored or procrastinating (often the 2 occur at the same time), i sometimes go to visit loquax and meredi, 2 of gel's roommates. by reading gel's blog, i've gotten to know the 3 of them somewhat.
tonight, i was going thru my blog list and went to go visit connie in hopes that she had updated. i checked her guestbook for new entries too and discovered her cousin who lives in kingston. curious, i went to check out her cousin michelle's blog.... and found that she knows gel too!!!!!! and meeshem!! one of gel's ex-classmates from eng sci.
it's one big circle!!! or maybe it's just a big maze. :)
funny.... i wonder if i'll ever meet these girls in real life one day.... i might even be passing them by on campus and not even realizing it. what a thought.
i wonder if anyone is stalking me!
well, i guess we discovered that awhile ago. hi oliver! :)
LOOK!!!
my girl sarah is famous!!! she was #1 in canada on the ufe!!!!!!!!!! but then again, i always knew she was genius. ;) congrats, babe. i'm so proud of u!!!
Tuesday, December 17, 2002
Superman’s Creek
I don't get Smallville. I mean, hello, Clark lives happily ever after w/ Lois, not Lana. So what's the point? Just 'cuz Lana's easy on the eyes? Even easier when you're a teenaged boy w/ x-ray vision. She's the reason for the show's male audience, that's for sure. I haven’t seen the show but I guess I picture Superman in his youth, crushing coals into diamonds w/ his hands and giving them to girls.
Hey Supes, that night behind the barn when you laid there on the hay watching shooting stars w/ Lana, that funny feeling you got inside wasn’t your affections for her, it was the pieces of Krypton falling from the sky.
Then again, who knows. If Clark's best friend later turns into his archenemy, maybe in the comics Lana can band together w/ the girls Clark met in college and head her own super villain team; Lois' archenemies, the vengeful ex-girlfriends of Superman.
my sassy girl
i just finished watching this korean movie. allen was raving about how sweet it is on sat night... so i decided to reward myself with it. seeing as it's been sitting on my desk for 4 months. :) after the first half i was left wondering what was so cute and sweet about it. i thought it was really dumb. i didn't get the girl at all! what was wrong with her? and the guy seemed like such a baby! well... i'll just say that the 2nd half of the movie was more of what i had hoped for... and left me with that content, dreamy feeling that so many love stories leave me with. [sigh] that's why i watch them. :) and now i'm listening to the theme song and smiling.... :) i'm such a sucker for these movies... heehee.
i just have to say that i really love my playlist right now. :)
music sounds so much better when u play it loud.
i feel like i could flyyyyyy!! phew... relief feels good. ONE MORE TO GO. i can do it, i can do it!
*sniff, sniff* angee's gone..... :( i'm so lonely.
i think i'm gonna reward myself first. i deserve it. kinda.
Monday, December 16, 2002
oh goodness, i'm so messed up. :)
last night, after coming home from work and talking to angee and finding out that exciting bit of news, i couldn't do any work for a good hour. :P i finally calmed down and worked til church this morning. i think i was scaring dan cuz i was so hyper from lack of sleep. :P at that point, it had been 27 h. we were singing kids songs... and he was coming up with all these unknown kid songs that no one had ever heard of. lol. maybe it's a saskatchewan thing. hahaha. anyhow, we waited and waited til we finally went to lunch at gum sec. yumm... haven't been there in awhile. it was nancy, euge, andrew, megs, dan, matt, me... and...... !!! :) goodness, i was so hyper at lunch.... i think i was entertainment for some ppl. lol. terrance should've been there! he would've gotten a kick out of it cuz whenever i was tired at work i'd be so hyper and do all these dumb things and he would never be able to stop laughing. i dreamt about lunch when i took a nap this evening and afterwards i thought to myself that i almost felt as if i was drunk. lol. that made me wonder if i would be a loud drunk or a "mopey" drunk, as angee calls it. hahaha.
today was a good day.
i'm happy happy happy. :) it was the biggest surprise ever. :D :D :D
i'm over at angee's right now working. and she's studying for her exam tmr. except we can't stop talking... and recalling memories of little kid adventures. like someone licking all the wo teep's at a fellowship potluck cuz he loved them so much he wanted them all to himself!!!!!!!!!!!! lol!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sound familiar anyone??? hahahahahaha.
ok, i better stop here and conserve all my energy for writing..... [yawn]. i think it's time for another nap!
Sunday, December 15, 2002
[gasp]
could it be??
could it be????
could it be??????
noooo waaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Friday, December 13, 2002
the whole apt smells like cologne.... i think pat and brad went out out. :)
i'm stuck at home.
writing writing writing
dum dee dum.
*tap fingers together, one.. at... a... time...*
i am very pleased with my purchase of these nestle mini ice cream bars. big enough to just satisfy, small enough to fit in after a meal. and significantly lower in fat than the turtles ice cream bars i had been considering. very significantly.
i'm listening to geri halliwell....and the chemical brothers....
now if only i could quit torturing myself!!
waiting....
"Second only to suffering, waiting may be the greatest teacher in godliness, maturity and genuine spirituality most of us ever encounter. Waiting is not a passive exercise, biding time while we engage in some sort of diversion. Waiting is not just what we have to do until we get what we hope for. It is part of the process of becoming what we hope for. It is a faith journey. Humility and hope are the essentials of waiting. But it is humility that makes hope possible. Until we are clear that it is God, not us, who is the Master and we, not God, who are the servant, we will feel our rights have been violated whenever we are forced to wait. We will resent our waiting and find every rationalization to take matters into our own hands. In other words, we can't hope in God until we have ceased to hope in ourselves."
~ ben patterson
i'm waiting.... for many things......
Thursday, December 12, 2002
X'mas Wish List (Part II)
Dear Santa,
I also want this.
Sincerely,
Brian
(age 25)
ack! things do not look good for my paper due fri. i had a major lack of motivation today... even though it was simple reading. help, help!!
on a more cheerful note, tonight's dinner was GREAT. we went to 7 numbers this time around on eglington, one block west of avenue. great place.... i highly recommend it! the food was amazing. we all had 3 courses - antipasti, pasta and main dish, cuz we were all too stuffed to touch dessert. lotsa alcohol, of course. though "lots" is subjective. :) lots to me, though i have a feeling i will see more in the near future. i had the tomato and boncoccini salad. is that anything like ur tomato and fresh mozarella salad thing, wongs? cuz it was sooooo good. oh my goodness. i so incredibly loved it. the pasta was great too - linguine with rapani (i think? it's a veg) and i had the "sexy duck" for my main dish with a grilled zucchini side. yummmmmmmmmmmm. i can't do restaurant reviews like gabe, so i can only go on and on about how good the food was. :P the tomatoes were so ripe, the boncoccini firm and light, the linguine just the right texture and the duck was great cooked in white wine and bay leaves. the atmosphere is great too. candles, loud music, very trendy. it got really busy around 8ish, esp for a wed night and was still so busy when we left at 9. the ppl who go there are a bit older - probably late 20's, 30's. but there were a couple little kids. :)
anyhow, this dinner was happy and sad. happy cuz ann (the director of our program) came this time and we got her a thank u gift. we're the first class that's gone thru this program while she's been the director cuz she just started last yr. we all thought she did a fantastic job picking us. :D we got along so well and worked great together. sad cuz this is the last time we'll be seeing mary. she's leaving to go back to pei tmr cuz she's doing her practicum in halifax. *sniff, sniff* mary, we'll miss u so much! :( i think we've really grown close this last yr and a half. riah was right - the diff btwn our class and the one after us is that we're friends. the other class is pretty cliquey, i heard. and they don't hang out after class time. we organize monthly dinners and go out together, it's great! i'll miss these girls when we all graduate. :( but we'll definitely keep in touch!!
at dinner tonight, i was trying to figure out what riah's definition of a hot asian guy was (cuz her friend had told her there'd be lotsa them this sat at tonic and she was getting excited. lol.) riah mentioned that every time we've walked around on campus and i've said hi to guys, they've all been hot. and i was like - who??? lol. i do remember having seen ppl around when i was with my school friends, but i can't remember who!! and umm... a HOT guy?? lol. those are rare. :P or.... do i just have really high standards? hehe.
i have recently discovered the concept of dating.... :P ok, so i'm a little slow. lol. it takes a little bursting of my bubble to discover these things. anyhow, u know what? i sorta like it. the whole just-for-fun, non-committal thing. ok, this is the i-need-adventure lyds talking, not the sensible, i-wanna-settle-down-and-get-married lyds talking. :P how's this for one, angee: the day i start dating is the day i'll consider a long distance relationship. hmm..... ;) not risque enough.... ah well.
Wednesday, December 11, 2002
city love
I never liked this apple much
It always seemed too big to touch
I can't remember how I found
My way before she came around
I tell everyone
I smile just because
I've got a city love
I found it in Lydia
And I can't remember life before her name
She keeps a toothbrush at my place
As if I had the extra space
She steals my clothes to wear to work
I know - her hairs are on my shirts
I tell everyone
I smile just because
I've got a city love
I found it in Lydia
And I can't remember life before
The day
She called up and came to me
Covered in rain
And dinnertime shadowing
And as her clothes spun, we spooned
And I knew I was through
When I said "I love you"
Friday evening, we've been drinking
2 AM, I swear I might propose
but we close the tab
split a cab
and call each other up when we get home
falling asleep to the sound
of sirens
I've got a city love
I found it in Lydia
From the battery
To the gallery
It's the kind of thing you only see
In scented, glossy magazines
And I can't remember life before her name
~ john mayer
riah told me about this song! :D
why is it so hard to find vocal teachers?? i'm so not into the whole music teacher scene thing here in toronto. but i thought i knew ppl who were.... :) i guess not. does anyone know any contacts of vocal teachers they can send me? no one super duper amazing, but someone not that bad? :P hehe. i can't afford lots.
i agree with angee.... EVERYONE should have a gbk!! :) ahem... shannon! wongs!!
btw, wongs.... it sounds so horrible... like i keep wanting to try to convince to change ur eating habits.... which i do.....
trading places was sooooo funnneeeee!!! HAHAHA. steph and jon were so.... STEPH AND JON. lol. i haven't seen steph in at least 3 yrs, i'd say. but the 2 of them will never change. hahaha.
Monday, December 09, 2002
4 pm: sitting at my desk analyzing wongs' food record and talking to nate and andrew.
oh hello, mr. sun!
funny how something so simple can bring so much happiness. warmth. comfort.
wistful
i miss it. a fresh friendship, pleasant surprises, unexpected phonecalls, special dinners, flirting, exciting discoveries, understanding each other, sweet emails. i miss... him.
maybe it's a fresh start.
gahway (aka garway :P) has a blog!!!!! last night i dreamed that he had one. and that it was dark and mysterious. and then today at church i asked him if he had one. and he DOES. weird or what?? but his link is not what i thought it was. :P anyhoo.... he wouldn't tell me his link cuz it's a rant blog, but..... ingenious me, i found it!!! but i won't share... to respect his wishes... but instead, i offer u his good friend gaymond's blog. :D funny guy, that graymond.
wow, these last 24 h i've had many bloggings!
Sunday, December 08, 2002
hmm.... i dunno if he's a keeper, but this one's special. ;)
set up
so this is someone's philosophy about what i have to look forward to tonight: "just think that you'll be meeting some geeky boy who's probably really nice but at the same time, a little weird...that's why he's still single........." lol!! what does that say about all our guy friends who are single? or even us girls who are single?!! HAHAHA. but no, "girls who are still single probably are too high on themselves....that's why they're still single.....too picky......" hahaha. i'd like to think that. ;)
no expectations.
ok, i'm off to get ready! :)
yikes
ezekiel 3:16-21
At the end of seven days the word of the LORD came to me:
"Son of man, I have made you a watchman for the house of Israel; so hear the word I speak and give them warning from me. When I say to a wicked man, 'You will surely die,' and you do not warn him or speak out to dissuade him from his evil ways in order to save his life, that wicked man will die for his sin, and I will hold you accountable for his blood. But if you do warn the wicked man and he does not turn from his wickedness or from his evil ways, he will die for his sin; but you will have saved yourself.
"Again, when a righteous man turns from his righteousness and does evil, and I put a stumbling block before him, he will die. Since you did not warn him, he will die for his sin. The righteous things he did will not be remembered, and I will hold you accountable for his blood. But if you do warn the righteous man not to sin and he does not sin, he will surely live because he took warning, and you will have saved yourself."
hmm.... harsh. we had our first bible study for missions committee today after service and this is the passage we looked at briefly. how many times have we known that we should've said something to someone who was sinning... but didn't? for whatever reason. or talk to someone about jesus.. but didn't? i know i've been guilty of not acting on the holy spirit's promptings.... and this passage is a harsh reminder that one day we will be accountable for it.
part of developing a heart for missions is having a burden for the lost. so each of us listed someone that we feel God has put a burden on our heart to witness to and pray for. the person that came to mind for me is someone that i find sort of unlikely to have a burden for. out of all my friends who don't know God... why him? but i know there's a reason why i long for him to know God... and i hope that one day he will know the true joy and peace that comes from being a child of God.
liberation theology
The hermeneutics of the kingdom of God consists especially in making the world a better place. Only in this way will I be able to discover what these words mean: the kingdom of God.
~ Edward Schillebeeckx
an amazing day
this has been by far the most productive entire day i've had in a long time! i usually have productive streaks that don't last more than several hours at a time cuz i get restless and tired after that. but today i wrote a reflection paper in the morn, searched for articles for my intl hlth paper all aft and then prepped for my food service course at night. wow!! if only every day could be like this! though i did have a period of incredible boredom and desperate need for human contact. :P but that passed after i did devos and then i started working hard again!! what an amazing day. :D
2 big huge grp projects down, 2 more freakishly long papers to go!!
i got an extension on my papers! grad profs are great. :) but i hope that doesn't mean i'll start slacking off and drag it out til the last possible day! that would be sad, very sad. but sometimes one just can't control things like that. :P
Thursday, December 05, 2002
toques are under-rated. :)
i started reading a couple chapters of bill hybel's "courageous leadership." it looks like a good book! ... if u're looking for something to read.
aspartame is grosssss!! never buy astro fat-free yogurt with aspartame. blech. the small print "aspartame" tricked me. sneaky!! i prefer yoplait's fat-free fruit basket yogurt MUCH MUCH better. it's really yummy - BIG CHUNKS of fruit, NO aspartame! i recommend it. :)
here's another article on AIDS and opportunity.
another christmas favorite of mine is.... eggnog!!! bought my first carton of the season last night after work. rabba's is great. :) now i just gotta get me some fruitcake!
condoms, fish and circus tricks
i have a growing interest in HIV/AIDS, esp since it's having such a devastating effect on so many developing countries. check out some of the articles in the star on it: HIV escalating among women "the face of AIDS has become that of a young african woman, ... no longer the gay white men's disease it used to be in the '80s."
a documentary on AIDS in south africa that i saw at school a couple wks ago will be on vision tv (rogers ch 60, bell express vu ch 438) tonight (thurs) at 8 pm .... go watch if u're interested! it was made by canadian filmmakers robert and brenda rooney who are known to the toronto media for their role in human rights events.
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we started playing christmas music at work!! it occurred to me while listening to them all night that christmas is the only season where u can play songs about jesus and not get in trouble. hurray for that! :) lotsa praises to jesus going on these days, then.... :) in the midst of all this commercialization, maybe it will infiltrate some minds. :)
Tuesday, December 03, 2002
yesterday
i woke up at 5 am to do some writing for a grant proposal that i had wanted to do on the wkd, but had been too exhausted to write. the morn went by quickly as i wrote and wrote and wrote. b4 i left for my first meeting of the day, i put together my lunch and a warm snack. i knew that either pauline or her bf would be sitting outside harvey's again. i had seen them there every day this wk but had never had time to stop and chat since i was always in a rush. the two of them had had their welfare cheque withheld til they went in for a meeting with the welfare ppl. that meant that they hadn't gotten any money since october. as i stepped outside the front door of my condo, i was met by a blast of cold winter wind.
i walked briskly, late for my meeting with janelle and wanting to spend as little time as possible in the cold. i greeted pauline and dropped off the snack for her, saying a quick hello b4 heading on my way. but the sadness in her face and her question of "can i tell u the bad news?" stopped me in my haste. suddenly, the world slowed down and my rush to go places and get things done didn't seem so important anymore as pauline told me that they had taken harley, her 10 month old baby, away for 3 months. he had been in respite care for almost 3 wks while pauline was recovering from an alarmingly low iron count. she had gone to drop off a letter so that harley could go home with her when they informed her that they had obtained a court order to put him in a foster home for 3 months. all this had been done without her knowledge. she was shocked and saddened... it meant that her baby wouldn't even be home for his first birthday. her depression came back and waking up each day became harder and harder. i didn't know what else to do except comfort and hug her. and then the holy spirit whispered to me, "pray with her." and so i prayed... for God to wrap his arms around pauline, to comfort her and her bf, to keep harley safe in the foster home, to keep her warm that day, for ppl to be compassionate and generous realizing that she would not be out in the cold in below zero weather if she did not truly need the money, to help pauline keep her positive attitude in the face of so much hardship and tough times - something that i had always admired about her, and finally for jesus to make himself real to her and reassure her that he was with her every minute of the day. in the middle of our prayer, we were interrupted by a kind older man who pushed a 5 dollar bill into pauline's hand. and as we finished praying, pauline commented that things seemed lighter, easier to bear. she was reminded of a friend who had told her to give her problems to God cuz it was too heavy to bear on her own. as a native american, she is very aware of the spiritual side of life. and so i smiled at her comments, and said goodbye. as i turned away, i hoped that she would one day come to know jesus.
the rest of the day went by as so many other days go by. janelle and i met with a community-based researcher for some help on our grant proposal and then we were off to riah's place at yonge and davisville to work on another big project with the girls. riah had made fresh cinammon raisin bread for us with her favorite new gadget, a breadmaker and comforting smells filled her bachelor apt as we stepped inside. we worked hard all afternoon, putting together our presentation and drawing up an evaluation tool.
at 5 pm, i rushed home to change and meet sarah for dinner. she was in town for a couple days, having been sent by pwc in kitch to toronto for training and was staying at the royal york. i find there's something glamourous about working for an intl accounting firm and being sent to the big city for training, getting to stay in one of the top hotels in the city, all expenses paid along with a meal allowance. maybe it's just my naiveness in not having worked for a big corporation b4. i'd never realized how beautiful and luxurious the royal york was. it added to my impresions of glamour. sarah and i wandered around in the cold til we finally stumbled upon the old spaghetti factory. we had a great dinner, taking the time to enjoy the food (spumoni!!! but sorely disappointing unfortunately. perhaps i have been putting the spumoni i had way back in grade school on a pedestal.... ) and catching up on each other's lives. after dinner, we headed back to her hotel room to chat some more. afterwards, as i walked thru the lavishly decorated, brightly lit hotel lobby on my way out, i couldn't help but think to myself - i really enjoy this. the toronto lifestyle - great food, entertainment, shopping, fast-paced yet just enough time for leisure, living the corporate lifestyle - or the possibility of working for an international organization and being pretty well paid.
and yet.... in spite of my long day and the excitement of seeing sarah, i couldn't help but think back to the morning, remembering pauline and her troubles... and the reality that is life for many more ppl in toronto. and then i remembered once again what God has called us to do as christians and the passage that had led me to meeting pauline in the first place: matthew 25. "for i was hungry and you gave me something to eat, i was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, i was a stranger and you invited me in, i needed clothes and you clothed me, i was sick and you looked after me, i was in prison and you came to visit me.... i tell you the truth, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did for me." maybe the life that held so much wonder and grandeur and excitement for me is not meant to be mine after all. it'd be like living in a dreamworld, oblivious to reality. how strong are the temptations of this world.
"do not love the world or anything in the world. if anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him. for everything in the world - the cravings of sinful man, the lust of his eyes and the boasting of what he has and does - comes not from the Father but from the world. the world and its desires pass away, but the man who does the will of God lives forever."
~ 1 john 1:15-17
i return to my previous abnormal lifestyle of sleeping when i'm tired and waking after a few hours of sleep, cramming in as much writing as possible when i am most able to concentrate. though that's difficult to do when my fingers are icicles. something's wrong with my room .... or the heating! i can't believe that i turned down a set-up this wkd to write my intl health paper. i have become a true keener.
Monday, December 02, 2002
hey, who wants to come to an amazing race 3 party? :) sunday, dec 22nd at rich's house. we're gonna relive the entire EXCITING season!!! come one, come all!
db [yawn]. i'm so exhausted. i've been noticing that i get really tired right after i take my contacts out.
i wanna blog about my day. but first i must nap. and do 2 lessons of food service.
Sunday, December 01, 2002
happy birthday, hollyholz :)
i love esprit 50% off sales. :D
i had pho with steve after church today. (i think i've had a record number of pho this month.) he's such a riot!! europe will be soo much fun!!
i love prayer and talking to think. :)
angee and i could go on for hours analyzing ppl, situations and character traits. she's so insightful. :)
this blog is a perfect example of what we were analyzing today. haha.
i really like ewan macgregor's voice. he sings with such... anguish.
i love being a keener. it feels so amazingly good. life is so great when one is a keener. u actually get to do all the things u gotta do AND wanna do. today it meant sleeping in AND starting and finishing up my part of the written report of a project b4 noon. and being able to clean and do groceries (where i ran into allison. i never see ppl i know at no frills!!) and talk to wongs and make a yummy healthy lunch and listen to a radio show and spend time with God and get organized for next wk and work at jaka's for 8 h. speaking of which, we had an engagement party at work tonight! yup... u read right... an engagement party!! O_o in a bbt shop!! we were all a little skeptical, but all in all it turned out pretty nice!! the girl showed up with her fiance and set up the sectioned off area real nice - with candles and rose buds and yummy-looking cakes and fruit salad, very classy actually. nice atmosphere. and lotsa 1001 bay ppl came. :) renee recognized a bunch of them - all the non-student population.
the thing about wearing makeup all the time is that u can't not wear it anymore cuz u think u look like crap without it when u know how good u would look with it on.
